“The first made me stronger for the second”

Toolz: My dad had been a bit unwell for a while but he had always been a fighter. He has been super strong, and with a larger than life character.

But when he got ill, in my mind I was like, “yes he’s old but he’s gonna get through it”. I just could not imagine him not being around.

I’m just grateful that although he wasn’t around for my second son, he did meet my first son. I do have like video clips and pictures of him playing with my son and that’s a great comfort.

I think losing the baby before him kind of toughened me up. I could see it coming so I did start to prepare myself even though I was a bit in denial as well but I think the first thing made me stronger for the second.


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